violin nightmares

watching tears stream down my face in a  black and white reflection walking under a  velvet, black sky shadows are swaying with the dancing strings reminding me of him thinking of him only as the violins are echoing while looking through binoculars  watching him on stage wishing he was glancing up at me nevertheless, feeling just as  lonely as before perhaps i’ll walk one thousand miles today clockwise till i break  away from this cradle of  dreams that can never be toward the wailing violins loving only him crashing through a  symphony of nightmares knowing he will never feel the same about me hearing violins violently breaking; screeching that i will  forever regret knowing him